I was sitting outside meditating this morning. The sun was penetrating my skin and the birds were singing. It was such a glorious moment. I felt more connected than ever. That’s such a yummy place to be when you can FEEL the magic – all of life’s synchronicities percolating around you. Especially when you feel that energy anchor into your body and you not only realize but truly feel that everything is inside you. Inside this beautiful vessel we call home. I don’t know about you, but for years I took my body for granted. It was more than that… all the anger, sadness and frustration that I ever experienced was directed towards my body. I punished it with unhealthy foods, entirely too much alcohol, drugs (lots of drugs), promiscuous sex, by not giving it the rest that it needed, and the icing on the cake was all the toxic energy that I let stagnate there. The combination of suppression and so little care manifested as an autoimmune disease. I didn’t realize at the time that I was the one torturing my body…not the other way around. All along my body just wanted to be cared for… appreciated. It’s important to know that our body is always communicating with us. But what messages do you want to receive? I ignored those calls for help for so long. Now I’m in the mode of learning my body all over again. It’s like we’re old friends who have been reunited – trying to get to know each other again. There’s a little bit of awkwardness mixed in with excitement and nostalgia for a time in the past when we took care of each other. I’ve realized that my body wants to work with me, just as it’s working with the universe. I now know that I must honor the cycles and give my body what it needs so that I can not just survive but thrive.
I’m also realizing that I stopped trusting myself when I started abusing my body. I didn’t realize that by mucking myself up with toxins and abuse, I was suffocating my connection to source. I wasn’t completely cut off…it’s always there. I just kept missing the messages because i buried the line so deeply. That’s why it’s so important to me now to clear my body of the toxins, to honor it when it needs rest, to give it the nutrients it needs. I want to live a life of purpose. I want to do what I was born to do. I can’t just settle for a life of less… my soul is screaming through my body telling me I’m here for more than a 9-5. And the answers won’t come from my ego… the mind can’t tell me what I need to know. The soul speaks via the body. That’s why it’s so important to get quiet, ask the questions. Not from the head space but from the womb space. It’s the place of all creation. And this is such a critical time to listen… to connect and start consciously creating the world that we want. We have to trust ourselves and get our answers from within. Sure confirmations and hints come in the form of synchronicities but the knowing is deep within. I know for myself, for years I looked for answers from everyone else. It started out as family, then friends and then psychics and mediums. Don’t get me wrong, I still love a good reading. It’s fun and it’s great when what you already know is being confirmed. But don’t depend on those people and things. Don’t depend on anything outside. Start working with your body. Give it what it needs and it will give you so much in return.
You see I’m aware enough to know that what I’m experiencing is also in the collective. This isn’t just about me. Right now the universe is calling for us to all take a stand and do what it is we came here to do. It’s time to build the new paradigm and each and every one of us have something to contribute that only we can bring to the table. Our uniqueness is truly our gift to the world. Start loving yourself, start caring for yourself and trust that you know what you need. No one else can tell you. I know I’ve been on this journey for a few years now, so don’t beat yourself up for what’s already been done. Just start where you are now and give yourself the love that you’ve needed all along. It’s never too late and there’s never a better time than now. It’s really so important… nothing is by chance. You chose to be here to bring your gifts to the world. Don’t deny your soul and all of humanity…and definitely don’t underestimate your value. We are a microcosm of the macrocosm. What happens within happens outside. So if you want to make the world a better place start with you.
You might be wondering how… I’ll say it again. Get quiet and listen. You can do this anywhere but I prefer being outdoors when possible. Just sit with yourself even when it’s uncomfortable. There’s value in every single feeling. It won’t always feel like sunshine and rainbows but there is always a prize on the other side. Honor what comes up. It’s all for your soul’s evolution. Trust that… trust yourself. <3 Jess #newparadigmmama